My current work situation sees me working for an EB (evil....you get the picture) for the next four weeks.
It is a struggle to get out of bed every morning, iron clothes, put on make up and come to work. It usually involves my alarm going off at 7 am, and giving myself pep talks till 8 am…..everyday this pep talk is 5 minutes longer….I then sluggishly move around the condo, eventually tumbling in by 9.15 am.
Then there is the EB to deal with. She has taken to acting like nothing is happening. The other day she called a meeting of our team and asked me to continue to perform my role as usual. Of course having not told me that she has formally told the rest of the team that I am leaving, I asked innocently “Oh so everyone knows then?” Pin dropped silence was followed by uncomfortable shifting in their chairs.
Yesterday EB was in a great mood. For my part (call it childish) I have taken to responding to any enquiries with detached indifference (all those teenage years have proven to be useful) with simple yes and no answers. Yesterday EB walks into my office and makes a joke about how she has been receiving so many wacko applicants, it must be a full moon. Since the comment had nothing to do with work and required no intelligent response from me, I let it pass, unacknowledged, without so much as a lift of my head in her direction. The silence was so jarring that EB felt the need to a laugh at her own joke.
Only four more weeks to go…….in which I must not be emotional, suppress all violent urges and resist the compulsion to my pack my stuff and walk away.
Lord help me.