Thursday, October 22, 2009

The Trials of Silence

My current work situation sees me working for an EB (evil....you get the picture) for the next four weeks.

It is a struggle to get out of bed every morning, iron clothes, put on make up and come to work. It usually involves my alarm going off at 7 am, and giving myself pep talks till 8 am…..everyday this pep talk is 5 minutes longer….I then sluggishly move around the condo, eventually tumbling in by 9.15 am.

Then there is the EB to deal with. She has taken to acting like nothing is happening. The other day she called a meeting of our team and asked me to continue to perform my role as usual. Of course having not told me that she has formally told the rest of the team that I am leaving, I asked innocently “Oh so everyone knows then?” Pin dropped silence was followed by uncomfortable shifting in their chairs.

Yesterday EB was in a great mood. For my part (call it childish) I have taken to responding to any enquiries with detached indifference (all those teenage years have proven to be useful) with simple yes and no answers. Yesterday EB walks into my office and makes a joke about how she has been receiving so many wacko applicants, it must be a full moon. Since the comment had nothing to do with work and required no intelligent response from me, I let it pass, unacknowledged, without so much as a lift of my head in her direction. The silence was so jarring that EB felt the need to a laugh at her own joke.

Only four more weeks to go…….in which I must not be emotional, suppress all violent urges and resist the compulsion to my pack my stuff and walk away.

Lord help me.

7 comments:

Deb S. said...

Hang in there! Many of us have been there. I've found that the best way to survive is to find humor in even the most exasperating situations.

The good news is that this situation is only temporary. One day at a time....

LoneWolf said...

I started following your blog some time in 2008 I think. Read through the whole thing actually.

I am shocked by how quickly things have changed in regard to your professional position. I always thought that it was the one area in your life which would remain fairly stable and planned.

I'm really sorry to hear Ms Putz. Hope it will work out for you. I can just imagine how annoying and upsetting it is to work knowing that they are letting you go. I would be on edge, ready to let them have a piece of my mind. Well I'm on edge 24/7 in my job so I guess it wouldn't make a big difference.

Look on the bright side though. Your going to be free as a bird, you can have some fun, wise economical fun. I'm sure someone with your level of dedication & experience won't have a hard time picking up something better.

GC (God's Child) said...

wow
psychological warfare!
Very nice.

Chennette said...

So...as you don't have much to lose at that place (I am assuming), mix it up :-) be indifferent of course, but try a few days of unbearable perkiness :-) throw the EB off and give you some internal joy at the same time that you're being perverse. Develop a tic, wink at her, or twitch your nose to the left every 5 minutes.

Abeni said...

I'm with chennette a few days of unbearable perkiness should do the trick

Crankyputz said...

Deb S. -I love that hym, One Day at a time sweet Jesus, that's all I ask of you....

Lone Wolf: The one certainty is that nothing is certain...its been a great learning experience if nothing else...

I love the suggestions of perkiness, implementing it as we speak....

Mad Bull said...

How did the perkiness thing work out?